In my defense

Tying to negotiate my way through this foggy haze

smoke induced dreams of what may have been

sun spots brighten up the abyss’ manuevers

who is this looking back at me in the mirror?

Endangering the mind.

I think the anger comes from a place of pain. You should understand by now, I’ve only told you a thousand times.

I hate – “Just tell me what you need, or ask me for what you want, or tell me and I’ll do it”

News flash. You don’t.

I don’t expect you to anticipate my needs, I just thought you would understand the words that come out of my mouth.  Seriously.

I miss…

Loki

My High School Back Home

My grandparents

Sitting on the steps doing homework

Playing Volleyball

Writing

Thinking straight

J.D Salinger – Misunderstood

Catcher in the Rye is definitely not the only effective book I’ve read by JD Salinger, but it was the first. It’s honesty and human-ness shocked me as a child accustomed to reading fairy tales. I was too young to read it then but when I re-read it in high school I understood. People argue (people who don’t like Salinger’s frankness) that Catcher In the Rye was extreme and that it had no moral message; but it did. Every time I read it I discovered nuances that I’d missed and I related to Holden even more.

After a while Catcher In the Rye became “that book”. The one that people who wanted to impress friends that were more versed in literature than themselves used to try to show that they are well read. It became the book that you either loved or hated and the people who loved it were accused of being “phonies” and the people who hated it were told they were blind.

Whatever the truth is about the reader, the truth about the author remains the same; he had an exact view of the human condition and he executed it perfectly in Catcher in the Rye, so much so that it wounded people and extorted from them who they truly were. Everyone can be described partly, if not completely by a character in that book and everyone can relate. I just wish most took the time to read more than that one book, because even though it was momentous; it wasn’t all.

JD Salinger was a gift that kept on giving in the writing world. He will be missed.

People never notice anything. – Salinger – Catcher In the Rye

Earth Shaking…

So, most people have only heard about the Earthquakes that rippled through Haiti and the aftershock earthquakes in that region.

Since then, CNN has reported an Earthquake in Venezuela, Argentina, China and Guatemala but there have been more, many more.

http://neic.usgs.gov/neis/qed/

While we are making huge efforts in Haiti which is by far the region that is affected the most (obviously, that has the most damage) we should not forget that there are other parts of the world affected by earthquakes as well.

Lest this be another Katrina situation where we only focused on New Orleans, other states were affected as well.

Mother Earth

I get the sense that mother earth is angry; the earthquakes in Haiti followed by Venezuela and Argentina. I wonder what’s next, I worry for people living in Earthquake prone areas.

My heart goes out to the country of Haiti, as someone from a small Island that most people ignore I understand the feeling of lonliness and the dire desperation that natural diasaster brings. I only wish I could do more.

Escape

Words escape me as my thoughts haunt me. The moments of sureity are too far in between this feeling of helplessness.

I have to go see someone, I have to get medicated. It’s tearing my relationship apart and I see the alienation that I’m imposing on myself. In a room full of people I could do nothing but cry.

I miss who I used to be. I miss the feeling of my own strength. I’m becoming a burden.

UNESCO – Let’s Go!

On a less angsty note, I would like to visit at least 3 UNESCO World Heritage sites this year, outside of the U.S. of course.

The Top Places to go on my list are:

Tanzania

India

Italy

I know! I hope I can get to at least one but the aim is three. Wish me luck!

Random Blurbs

How does cassie have a music deal…but I don’t?

Looking Back

So everyone I know has already started their family. Hmmm.